Thursday, October 10, 2019

Completed #41. Learn to label all the states in America on a map



Been awhile. Been v. busy with work and general malaise. Finally completed the above.

As I remember things by shape (micro), rather than placement (macro), this app helped a lot, as it has quizzes on individual state shape:





Tuesday, August 6, 2019

Completed: #31. Do a geology-based trip

Geoff and I spent four nights in Bancroft, mineral capital of Ontario, for their annual gemboree.

A highlight was visiting the rock farm at the Princess Sodalite Mine, where visitors can dig through a man-made gemstone pit to buy raw treasures by the pound. It makes for very economical purchases, and is just generally a lot of fun.

We also got some rocks ID'd for free by mineralogist Tony Steede, stayed at a B&B who accommodated me with fabulous vegan breakfasts, bought a tri-coloured amber 925 silver ring to stand in for my wedding band (I'm fiercely allergic to anything but silver, apparently), and met an educational outreach coordinator who runs mining tours for teachers.

Some photos of our treks and finds:









Apatite^


^Amethyst


^Sodalite


^Galena


^Definitely some sort of volcanic rock, like Jet or Obsidian. Very dark black and shiny, but extremely light weight. May get ID'd at the ROM later this month.


^Talc


^Fuchsite (?)


^Amazonite (?)


^Red Aventurine (?)


^Blue, Green & White Calcite


^Pyrite


^Feldspar with inclusions of Apatite, Mica, Smoky Quartz and Pyrite


^Smoky Quartz


^Quartz


^Mica


^Fossil




Monday, July 29, 2019

Thursday, July 4, 2019

Progress #34. Try 10 different beading projects

6/10: Anklets / Ankle Cuffs

I made these to match my steadily-developing regalia, which centres around my spirit name.

I also got to use the last of the gold bugle beads gifted to me by my mom to make the golden eagle feathers -- and as the last in the series that involves the golden eagle on the vest, the feathers on the bracelet cuffs and, now, the feathers on the anklets, I thought that was quite serendipitous and neat.






My next project will be a headpiece / band of flowerwork to match the front of my vest -- and I'm going to loombead it, because I haven't beaded on a loom since I was a kid and I used to love it so much -- this really logical bridging of math and art. I'm excited.

My next next project is going to be to fully appliquée a plain pair of Toms-esque shoes with a sunrise and flowers. This should be the last piece of regalia, until I learn to machine sew a ribbon skirt. That likely won't be until my next set of goals, though.


Monday, July 1, 2019

Progress: #15. Read and write more poetry


nayyirah waheed, 2013

---

"my heart is in my mind. i think this is why i am an artist."

---

"i don't pay attention to the
world ending.
it has ended for me 
many times
and began again in the morning."

---

"stay is a sensitive word.
we wear
who stayed
and
who left
in our skin forever."

---

"you do not have to be a fire
for 
every mountain blocking you.
you could be a water
and
soft river your way to freedom
too."

---

"never
trust anyone
who says
they do not see color.
this means
to them
you are invisible."

---

"apologize to your body.
maybe
that's where the healing begins."

---

"some people
when they hear your story
contract.
others
 upon hearing
your story.
expand.
and
this is how
you know."

---

"if you can not
hear
them.
ask the ancestors
to
speak louder.
they only whisper
so
as not to frighten you.
they know
they have been convinced.
coerced.
spooked.
from your skin."

---

"you must
put
healing on the list.
the grocery list.
the to do list.
the night list.
because
you are teaching
your baby
the very same chemistry
that
took your eyes
and
heart when you were four."



Original goal list posted here

Saturday, June 15, 2019

Completed: #32. Meditate for 15 minutes daily for 1 week straight

For days 6 (yesterday morning) and day 7 (just now), I did a silent 15 minutes on timer with the only strategies that worked for me for a few seconds at a time: body scanning -- individually checking in with each part of the body and feeling sensations currently associated with each, focusing on all sounds around me, silently saying "in" and "out" with each breath, and imagining breathing in and out through each part of the body.

Today I tried it after smudging first.

Honestly, though, this was really difficult and largely unproductive for me. My mind does not sit even remotely still, even with concerted effort -- when I was a teen, I used to describe it as a 20-fold thought-track. My efforts at meditation just made me more conscious of this and less able to stop them as I didn't have any actions to distract me.

Moreover, one of the more damaging parts of my psyche is that I must never feel self-indulgent. This manifests into a lot of my longest-standing issues and just regular day-to-day quirks of existence. The last two mornings, for instance, I had instant coffee because I did not feel like I deserved good coffee. In this sense, I could see taking a still fifteen minutes if I "earned" it -- my most productive was after a difficult and sweaty yoga workout as a cool down. It had earned purpose then. I could see trying that out again.